24 July 2007

drastic improvement

so i got this forward today from my friend Lauren. the punchline:
if you send this crazy thing to 15 or more people, it claims that: Your life will improve drastically and everything you ever dreamed of
will begin to take shape.

and my response matches my current condition perfectly:

"i am not fwding this but can my life go ahead and improve drastically anyhow?

i mean seriously. sick and tired of being sick and tired (and p.s. alone).

15 July 2007

spanish reds

do you want to learn a thing or two about wine?
trying not to sound silly when you open your mouth to speak about the wonderful bouquet that you just ingested?
simply yearning to know MORE about that miraculous and melodious libation?

and start with this article.


10 July 2007

words that keep me

so these are things i've heard recently that make me feel more alive.
they deserve to be recognized for what they are,
but beyond that, they keep me moving.
and they are simple words.

"Loving-kindness (maitri) toward ourselves doesn't mean getting
rid of anything. Maitri means that we can still be crazy, we can still
be angry. We can still be timid or jealous or full of feelings of
unworthiness. Meditation practice isn't about trying to throw
ourselves away or become something better. It's about befriending who
we are already."- Pema Chodron

"they say this place has changed, but strip away all of the technology and you would see that we all are hunters, hunting for something that will make us okay." (sleeping at last)

" So strange...some men - well let's just say I got lucky and so did Caroline!
As with anything in this world - dont let this one spoil the fun...
this one person or event, I mean." (my mother, whom I adore)

"We love you, Stephanie." -bob hancock

09 July 2007

oh i'm nervous!

i get these splottchy splotches on my chest when i get nervous... i just looked down at myself, in this cute dress, getting ready for a fab dinner with the bosses, and i realized a truth: "oh i'm nervous!"

tonight is a night of my adulthood. and i have LONG hair. and i am wearing it down. so take me seriously world, but don't forget this one important tidbit of information: i am just a child.

i get excited at little girls with pigtails and swimmies and triangle top bikini's. you know why? because i wish i had carried the courage i had as a child into my adolescent and adult years. being an adult is really just like letting fear clone inside of your mind. i have no reason to be scared, but i think that my intelligence and my beauty and my talent and my wisdom and my spirit scares me.

i think i am afraid i will overwhelm others. but by just living out who i am, i am really trying to do but one thing: affirm who each of you are. so don't praise me. praise the Spirit that created me. and praise that same Spirit that created you. and live a life of praise. and walk with me while we gather stones and build lives out of who we are. and let all that fear crumble and shudder our fortress, but let us never fall.

let us live on in all our glory and wonder.

let us live as we were created to be.