and the light at the end of the tunnel in this city has officially burnt out.
the next big opportunity flushed, and me, wondering, really? what am i missing here? do you ever stop and think: does everyone else see something i don't see?
part of me wants to throw it all to the wind, "haVe it ALL," i would yell as i released handfuls of responsibility, upkeep, frustration, letdown. but another part of me a sailboat, ready and waiting for the wind. patient, but prepared. i have a suitcase. i have a mode of transportation. i have a dream. now what?
what is whispering?
what is trying to speak?
my prayer: trigger my heart, life, i am ready.
i'm going to start tracking ideas that i have. it would be fun to look back in a year or two when i finally get it in gear and make a step----that's part of what makes blogging such a blast. such exposure. such heartfelt release. such response.
ideas of the week:
1. office of international affairs positions in OTHER cities.
2. paul going to UC Davis to get a degree in viticulture. moving this spring, saving a bunch of money and working a bunch, TOGETHER, having a space, TOGETHER, living and traveling the east coast.
3. moving to alexandria/dc area in the *near future* to be near family and friends and to pursue careers...
just in the midst of me typing this today paul found a wine position in alexandria and i found a job at paper source in georgetown.
um is that the wind i hear?
posting a card tonight that fits this subject perfectly: change is in the air.