you're going to be my golden year. you're going to teach me how to shine, even when it's easier to shrink back and be dull. i am setting my intentions on living a more illuminated, more shining life.
i've been toying with the idea of what success means. looking at wat i accomplished in 2009 (and lack thereof) and evaluating it honestly, i see that in many moments, i was shining and bright. those are moments i remember with joy, ease, and so much heart. there were also moments of shame, sorrow, and sadness. moments when i couldn't understand the process, i couldn't communicate the need, and i definitely didn't work towards greatness. it was a fine balance, 2009, but in 2010, i'm ready to tip the scales in the direction of more joy, more ease, more laughing out loud, more courage, and more heart, too. i am ready dive in. i am tired, so tired, of the shore.
(i am ready to be more like that silly girl on the left, in her mama's lap. more monkey. less business.}
2009 was good to me, don't get me wrong. its just that it was easy to stroll along the shore, and it wasn't the change of scenery i'd hoped for, the change of course i plotted, or the exciting new adventure i have been longing for. 2009 was more grey and dull. 2010, you will be bright and shining. You will bring out all that is bright and shining within me, and you will offer me a chance to share it with the world.
2009 taught me a lot about how much challenge i need, and how, when faced with long term decisions, i have a tendency to shrink back a bit. it also taught me that i operate fiercely well with goal-setting, and feedback is an imperative part of my growth. it taught me that coaching is one of my gifts, and it's one i want to share with the world. it taught me that even when all else fails, love is truly enough.
but 2010, you're the start of a new decade. i want to look back at my life and say you were the spark. so i declare, 2010, that you will be my golden year. i will dive into your fire and emerge more refined. i will hold back no more. i will live more illuminated, more on fire, more sparkling.