20 May 2012

the real deal

it occurred to me that i have a tendency to tip towards the very philosophical when i'm blogging. if you ever sit next to me at lunch, you'd know that i am not so eloquent- i spell things incorrectly, stumble over my words, drop soba noodles on my new top. alas, i am a human being, too! so let's drop it a few notches, shall we?

here's a few little tidbits about life that are true for moi:

1. i love to dance. here's me keeping it real with my 18 and 20 year old brothers. (note to tanner & mason: you're welcome for teaching you mad dance skills.)
dance floor mania

2. I drop stuff...a lot. below is an image of my right foot after dropping a full 40-oz stainless steel water bottle on my own barefoot. and i have long, roman toes (that bend very odd ways), and a scar on the top of my foot from shaving it in the bathtub at my grandma's house when i was 3 or 4. caroline was in the bathtub, too and totally got me in trouble for screaming when blood turned the bathwater pink. i thought i could get away with it... ha 

nice bruise

3. i will never turn down a cocktail this guy makes. did you know my dad is the cocktail king? actually, he & BB are extraordinary hosts in every way. (this was a trader vic's dinner-party-dance-train. oh yes, good cocktails, better dance moves! told you i like to dance.)

dinner party dance train

4. my darling husband just got back from a seriously amazing trip to italy with his company. i did not get invited. yes, i was very jealous; but, there is nothing like seeing the ones you love saturated by witnessing what they love firsthand. his stories and photos were absolutely amazing. 

mauro veglio magnum. life's too hard, pw.

 5. i am often caught staring at my phone. this is something i'd like to change about myself. iPhones are addictive. sometimes i get so sucked into the black hole that i forget to see my beautiful life happening all around me.
guilty as charged.

 6. i am VERY particular about which pens i use. simple black ballpoints will never satiate this hand. don't be fooled into thinking i am something special, just very particular.

sakura jelly roll bliss.
7. i have trouble sticking to my goals. as much as i hate to admit it, i've been struggling to juggle it all lately, and i start something (like a new fit book!) and don't finish it. re-establishing goals and my vision for my best self. 
8. i LOVE LOVE LOVE colored sprinkles of any kind. my JOY among JOYS is colored sprinkle anything. be it chocolate covered frozen bananas or pretzel rods, rolled in colored sprinkles? GUSH. i love it. get this from my mama. 
colored sprinkle heaven.
9. since 2007, i have taken a photo/scan of almost every card i've made. a few nudges from some interesting people inspired me to take note of this talent. whispers, people: that's where the magic happens (in the still small voices).
heart piercing cards, 'grow." sold.

10. my grandmother once said to me, "you write fancy things" and i tell you what, that's probably the most darling comment i've ever received. thanks GG9a. you're the best.  (pictured here playing a gypsy and a tough hand of cards- again, with tanner & mason.)
gg9a gypsy

how's that for ten fun facts! the real deal about me. taking inventory of the ways things are can help leverage our strengths (and opportunities for growth) as we reach for the next rung on the ladder.

though i'd like to think of myself more like a monkey hanging out in a tree, ready to move on up to the next level and see a new perspective of this big, brave world. (totally not trying to get philosophical on you here. lol) happy sunday!

16 May 2012

life cycle

my favorite photos of me are the ones paul takes. this is probably no mistake: he demonstrates such an unconditional way of loving me that even i'm uncomfortable receiving that much love. we see ourselves so much differently than we really are. our flaws aren't that bad, after all, they make us who we are and give us a fair evaluation of the opportunities for growth.

we were watching 'weight of the nation' last night, the first of four videos HBO produced in collaboration with the NIH and CDC regarding the epidemic of obesity in the US. after watching the first episode, i think the series has powerfully and poignantly captured a severe problem that we face as a community-a part of the whole that we contribute to everyday.

something struck me in the episode last night, when a very obese woman says from time to time, she asks her (rather moderately sized) husband to tell her truly if she's gotten too big. she says when he doesn't answer she knows what that means.

i suppose that in many ways, we all look externally for validation, honest evaluation, and the constructive criticism that we cannot face alone. but something struck me as significant about that method of 'seeing;' if we never see ourselves clearly, we may never exhibit the bravery to face both our flaws and our magnificence.

much like my ability to banter on about problems but not pour equally as much time into solutions. or my ability to plug away for hours at end on the computer but not balance the scales with movement activity and 'me time.' how we exhaust our spiritual resources to the short-lived praise of this world. how we tell stories to ourselves about ourselves when ourselves don't approve and don't want to believe that could possibly be true.

if i've learned one thing in my very short twenty seven years it's that we reap what we sow; and in light of that, this is the life cycle:

plant good seeds. tend to them faithfully.
 don't let any storm or draught or famine scare you away from the beauty that grows. 
enjoy the harvest. share the bounty.  

while you're at it, don't forget that we're all in this together. love always wins. 

have i left anything out? i'm all ears (adorned with grandma's oversized golden hoops).

09 May 2012

looking back

i've been thinking lately. this life really is amazing. after the semester wrapped up and i could finally come up for air, i look back over the past days, months, and years--the past decade even--and i am so grateful for every meandering path, green pasture, and steep hill; for the quiet moments that consolidated my beliefs and the loud, tulmutuous roar of change. i am grateful for the soft look back on all the days that have made my life what it is today.
spontaneous art, reads: 'know love'
the moments that make me come alive are treasures:receiving a flat rate box full of hand-me-downs from my sister_unpacking a picnic under the summer sun with paul_flipping my dog in yoga class, sweat drippy down my (undeniably tabb) nose_ the continuous delight of our growing family as the years march on_lighting soy candles and sinking into a hot bath_seeing my sweet friends faces during a g+ hangout. wow.  the cumulative effect of all this life offers make my heart just absolutely burst with gratitude.

how do we fill our hearts? are our days spent seeking that which yields pleasure, joy, companionship, and treasures? do moments of fear call out our courage? what inspires our work, our relationships, our craft?

journal, reads: 'go! fill your heart!"

i guess this thought sums it up perfectly:  trust your life as it unfolds...
card, reads: 'trust your life as it unfolds...'
my dear friend ea and i always joke that the bravest thing we do everyday is leave our front door. life is not easy. (make no mistake that i have somehow figured it out.) blustery winds blow even the best of intentions astray. cars flood. we say goodbye to the ones we love the most. the inner flame wanes. we lose the ability to know our own treasures and strengths.

but as we lean into the day that has greeted us, the glow that awoke us from our slumber and called us out to the curb somehow ensures we have just what we need to keep that still, small voice alive.
card: marianne williamson quote
just in case you needed a reminder to manifest the glory.
permission to shine more brightly than ever before.
or an extra dose of love.

all of that, and more, is yours.

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